So by now, just about everyone knows our big news :). Snookie baby #2 is on the way! Even though we were planning on having more kids, this came as a surprise to both of us... me especially. I was so oblivious to all the signs that I actually gave blood last week! When I didn't bounce back after a couple of days, my suspicions grew. I felt extremely nauseous, tired, and weak so I decided to buy some cheap Target brand pregnancy tests. Not wanting to waste them (or get a false negative), I decided to wait until first thing in the morning on Sunday, April 28th. I had just rolled out of bed so I was pretty groggy, but wanted to make sure either way. Whenever I think about it, I laugh because I was so 'out of it'... I hadn't even finished putting the cap on the test and setting it down before the line showed up. Then, I sat there in a sleepy stupor trying to make sure that's where the line was supposed to be... "is that the right line?" I remember when I took the test to find out about Logan, I was ecstatic. I cried and practically jumped up and down because I had wanted it for so long. This time, I was pretty much in shock... I was happy but very surprised (and still sleepy).
So there you have it. I'm
pregnant :). I know it's for real, but it still seems surreal. I'm
looking forward to the stage where I start feeling pregnant (uterus
expanding, baby moving, etc.) instead of just having the fatigue and
nausea. And of course there's the early pregnancy doubt and worrying
because it's so hard to know that everything is ok. I just pray that
everything will be fine :). On that note, God gave me a bit of a
wake-up call the other day. I was praying for this baby, that it will
be healthy and have a perfect heart, lungs, kidneys, etc. and was
thinking about everything that we went through with Logan. Immediately,
the first part of Ecclesiastes 3:11 popped into my head. It says "He
has made everything beautiful in its time." I nearly broke down in
tears (yes, I'm emotional... thanks, hormones). I will never think that
God didn't make Logan perfectly and beautifully but this was a very
blunt reminder :). Needless to say, that message has changed the way I
pray for this baby just a little bit. I still pray for a healthy baby,
but I know that God does perfect and beautiful work and I will trust Him
in all of it.
next step is for me to go to an obstetrician and hopefully get an early
ultrasound to see the little bean. Ever since Logan was born I have
wanted my future babies to be born naturally (vaginally) but had to find
a doctor that would be supportive of a vbac (vaginal birth after
caesarean). I searched for hours yesterday and called multiple
offices... most said they didn't do them at all (?!?!) but I finally
found a practice that is known for doing vbacs. I made an appointment
for next Tuesday at 2:30 and am very excited to meet the doctor/s and
midwives. I'm especially excited because they deliver at the Northside
Hospital in Forsyth County, which is maybe 10 minutes from our house.
They have a fairly new Women's Center there and the rooms are so nice.
join with me in praying for this pregnancy to go smoothly and have no
complications. We're so happy and can't wait to get to know our little
Christmas present :).